You Don’t Have to Like Running

My wife has the only psychosis that I envy. She loves to run.

That’s not entirely true.

She needs to run. In the same way that I need oxygen and Facebook needs your phone number, she runs.

I’ve gone running before. There’ve been a few times in my life where I was running two or three miles a few times a week. I was happy that I was doing it, but doing it was the worst.

Maybe I didn’t get myself to the point of runner’s high. Or I might have an irreversible bad attitude about running. In any case, it didn’t stick, and I don’t have any plans to make running a regular part of my life again.

When I started weight training in 2015, I finally felt like I was enjoying exercise. I’ve been at it 5 or 6 days a week since then. I really like it. Which means that it’s not exercise that I don’t like. I’m not lazy. Mostly.

It’s just that I really don’t like running.

I don’t like it.

It feels empowering to say it.

Say it with me…

I DON’T LIKE RUNNING.

Put the handclap emoji in between every word like you MEAN it.

I. DON’T. LIKE. RUNNING.

And that’s OK.

Which isn’t to say you shouldn’t like running. I wish that I did.

Just don’t be exercise normative.

And stop closing the whole city to run 5k.

Working a System

It’s how people sit down everyday to grind out new ideas and make new things. It’s showing up. Everyday.

It’s also how we keep Mr. Robot out of our heads.

It took me a long time to appreciate habit. I grew up without any. Smoking was the my first real habit, but I haven’t even had a cigarette in twelve years.

This all changed in March of 2015 when I started a new workout program. The name of the program isn’t important – it’s also embarrassing – What matters is that it removed the burden of having to think.

There was no question, no room for rationalization. Nominees for internet searches or second guessing. Putting it off until “tomorrow” just wasn’t an option unless I wanted to progress more slowly through the system.

I’m still going six days a week, and it still kills me to have to take one day off per week.

This is where I’d like to get with writing. A place where the default is sitting down, cranking out some ideas, and publishing.

Everyday.

All of this nonsense isn’t for you. It’s for me.

And really, it’s utility isn’t for right now. It’s for later.